Eeyore the donkey...

I kinda noticed that I have evolved into an Eeyore... Gloomy guy who likes to be by himself... Unnoticed most of the time... Being appreciative when people notice him, no matter what reason it was for...

It was a nice change for a while... Reclining to watch the world go by... But being an Eeyore is not going to bring me to places I wanna go... I have dreams I wanna fulfil... Places I wanna set foot on...

I was trying to recall when I turned into this passive animal, but to no avail... I used to be a confident party animal with a direct and clear path... Self driven, self motivated person... So what happened to me???

Had been numb to everyone around me for quite some time... And I believe it is time for a change... It's time to defrost that passion inside of me... The passion from the love I have for all my friends...

I need a plan... A clear plan in life... A path I wanna stick to... I wanna go somewhere where I can make a difference... It's time to move on...

Sorry to everyone I have neglected during the past few months... Especially my girlfriend... Thank you for sticking with me, despite my passiveness... Thank you!

Got to admit it... I've been done in...

Took a look at the website almost everyday to see the vote counts... But sad to say.... All I got from all this, was an enormous stab to my already deflated ego... It didn't take the vote count to demoralize me... I was already in a state of whimper before entering the contest...

The initial goal to boost my miniature self confidence had been a total flop... Couldn't help but let myself drift further and further into the slime form of me... Dropping out of the contest had not been an option for me since May, after the make over was over...

Being a bad dancer and a SFU didn't help much either... Perhaps joining the competition was the worst mistake I had made in my entire life... Sigh...

No matter how hard I try to convince myself to finish the competition and have fun in the process, ny heart knew the extreme unwillingness my body was feeling... The vote count has indeed affected me, no matter how I tried to hide it...

Tonight's the last night of the week since the voting started... I can do nothing, but helplessly watch my name get taken off the chart... Sitting in the extreme last back seat of the twelve... I already have the answer I already knew... Please stop rubbing salt on my wound... There was nothing left of me from the start...

Have you read a Dan Brown???

I have been rather absorbed... Ouccpied... Busy... with a book... Not just any book, but THE book... Of course, it's none other than the well known best seller of Dan Brown's... The Da Vinci code...

Dan Brown intrigues you... and tempts you to read on using short chapters with an open ended question mark that leaves you ready for more mysteries... I couldn't take my eyes off the book... Caught a few chapters secretly during work hours as well...

Dan Brown is a very daring man... He dabbles with sensitive non-fiction topics and tactfully combines it with a tint of fiction that often leaves his readers questioning themselves as to which is fact and which is fiction...

I admire the courage he seems to with hold in his words, as he challenges an extremely sensitive topic In Singapore... Religion... In the story, he mentioned that the holy bible was actually compiled togther by a powerful pagan by the name of Constantine as an effort to elevate his power standings... He took 2 religions, a sun worshipping pagan group and of course christianity and combimed them into 1... Doctorines that reflected Jesus as a man serving the ministry were taken out, and those that made Jesus seemed Holy were compiled... Constantine rode to fame on Jesus name had further escalated his power... In the bible, God had rested on a Saturday... And yet we worship God on Sunday... Sunday was the day the pagans paid tribute to their god...

Questions shot in my mind, as I read... The book also mentions that the Holy Grail is not a cup they drank out of during the last supper, but a human instead. That Leonardo Da Vinci has hidden codes in his drawings... And much more...

The book imparts simple knowledges that I hadn't took time to notice before, like the beautiful number... the basic building block formula known as PHI... Did you know that PHI can be seen in nature everywhere, including humans... The ratio of many of our body parts measured together is actually PHI... For example, the ratio of how far our head is to the ground to how far our belly button is to the ground is actually PHI...

IF you wanna know more... Don't hesitate... Pick up your copy today... Hee...

Butch Hunt 2005 contestant no 4... Please vote for me...

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Hip Hop 

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Small Eyes 

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